Friday, April 6, 2012

Z Dubs and Little Loves

I clearly have dropped the ball on this whole blog thing (sorry, Zach). Funny thing is that I don't think he will really mind. From what it sounds like, he is having the time of his life in Texas, even learning how to speak Tongan? And homeboy is coming back in a month - A MONTH. I cannot believe it. I mean, it feels like he missed a lot, but at the same time, it feels like he just left. Sounds stupid, I know...but it's real.

In any event, I am a busy bee out here in Chicago. Working in "big law" is no joke. There's a reason they give you "unlimited" vacation - you don't have any time to take it. But really, I am enjoying it and learning a lot. I am really loving Chicago too - the mildest winter yet and I am finally making some great friends. I had some great friends from school, but they moved to NY, Houston, you name it. It's odd trying to make friends as a working adult (yeah, I am an adult now). For a while there I was searching for the friend-making equivalent of Fortunately, I didn't need it and only went on a couple awkward girl dates to find some friends that I really connect with.

Honestly, over the past 10/11 months since I last updated, all I have been doing is working, hanging out with Pete, traveling back to Napa for my BFs wedding in September, facetiming my adorable nieces and nephews...trip to Antigua in there...OH and little miss Hazel joined my life.

Every time a new miracle joins my world I am amazed at how my little heart makes room for that as soon as they enter this world and I see a photo or hear a cry...I am unabashedly and irrevocably in absolute love. The power my little loves have over me is indescribable. I love them with every single inch of my being and thinking about that love, what the tiny little bundle evokes from my imperfect person...overwhelms me. Every little being that joins my world makes me feel all that more complete. It is like I can not even fathom what my world was like before they were in it. And it aches that I cannot see them nearly as much as I would like. BUT, they will grow up knowing Auntie Erin loves them - that I am certain of!

I can only imagine what it will feel like when I someday have one myself. (Shhh, don't tell Pete - we have a few steps to take first!)

I am a lucky lady - so happy my loved ones are happy, healthy and prosperous. Because if they are happy, I cannot help but be the same.

Here's to 11 more months of hard work, love, travels, family time and fun. I know trials and oopsies will be mixed in there, but I've got some stellar folks to keep me moving forward.

And for that. I thank you.